Misunderstood

Misunderstandings are for the weak

they don't even try to understand me

They are blind if they do not follow

The free spirit 

The God in me.

 

Some days I’m lazy

Some days I’m shady 

Some days I’m crazy 

Some days I need saving. 

 

Some days I'm the best

With an S on my chest

Some days I save the world 

some days I'm a helpless girl.

 

Yes I am loud 

They say mean and outspoken

But my love is pure 

And my heart is golden.

 

Sometimes I'm strong.

Sometimes I’m scared.

Sometimes I need love.

Sometimes I just don't care. 

 

I like to say bad words, smoke weed, and drink beer 

but I'm still a woman with cares, emotions, and fears.

 

I like to show my body 

Cause it’s what God made

You can look but DON’T TOUCH 

You cannot have me your way.

 

I am a puzzle indeed but I'm still just a girl

trying to be understood in this fucked up world.

 

I am Misunderstood

 

-Chantel

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Oh what an interesting concept this is inside of my brain. Perception vs reality. Us humans, always running around the world trying to make sense of the universe. I ask myself if the idea of reality is concrete. Is it real? I mean how can it be real if it means something completely different to all of us. We always hear that there are two sides to a story; his side, her side, and the truth. But is this really true. Assuming that we aren't dealing with habitual liars, to him, his side is true. To her, her side is true. But I guess it can be true, perhaps it just depends on your perception of this topic. But is reality real? If the perceptions that construct our realities is based upon our own personal belief structures, is it safe to say it is not? I do not know the answer, but it is a thought provoking idea in my mind. I ask myself this a lot. I apply this question to many situations and it always leads me to a better understanding. We are not our eyes, ears, or brains. I think reality becomes a dangerous word when we assume our perception is reality. It becomes dangerous when don't understand the difference. It is dangerous because we assume that our view is the only view. I think it is logical to say that reality doesn't exist, given that its definition is different to everyone. Due to life experiences, we all perceive things differently and to each one of us that is reality. What do you think? Is reality a real concept?????

-Chantel 

"I Am Chantel" Vlog Mini Series

As many of my followers would know, I picked up vlogging. I enjoy making videos of my activities and ideas using my creativity. It has become a very relieving and positive outlet for me. I started off with my iPhone, then upgraded to a point and shoot digital camera. Now I am using a canon T5 from the rebel series. One of me best investments ever. Anyways, I was laying in bed one day and I was thinking about all the things that I do and all the experiences that sum up who I am. I asked myself 'Who Are You'? It dawned on me that this would be a great foundation for a vlog mini series because I have so much to say, so many answers. However, I did NOT want to just upload a bunch of videos ranting about my life, I do enough of that on snapchat. I really wanted to make it unique. Something "dope" and "artistic". I wanted to use this idea to create some visuals and poetry that discuss the wide range of topics that has contributed to the woman I have become. This series aims to answer the question "Who is Chantel?" I looked at Beyonce's "Lemonade" as inspiration. A well thought out visual for my followers to take a glance in the mind of Chantel. I call this mini series "I Am Chantel". You can find the episodes in the Vlog tab of my website. The series will be uploaded in segments so the videos won't be to long and so I can have the time to get creative with the episodes. I would like to thank each and every person who supports my artistry and follows my work. It truly means the world to me and I would love to know what you guys think. Leave me a comment because I want to know whats going on in your mind as well.

With love,

 Chantel